Friday, November 12, 2010

Cutting it Close

I actually thought about giving up on the NaBloPoMo thing tonight because I am seriously tired. Like the kind of tired where you feel wasted. I really don't sleep enough as it is, and the sleep I do get depends entirely on how well Charlotte is sleeping. Wow, that last sentence is like the most obvious thing a parent has ever said.

See, I haven't said anything about this before because even though I don't believe in "jinxing" things, this was too good to risk losing: Charlotte has been sleeping like a CHAMPION, lately. Like...a sleeping Olympian. She usually goes to bed and down for naps with a couple stories, a song or two, and a goodnight kiss, accompanied by a "See you in the morning," which she says to her stuffed animals when she pretends to put them to sleep. Yeah, it's cute.

If she wakes up in the middle of the night, I can usually get her back down with some binkies, a quick cuddle, and occasionally, another song. But, even then, she's been known to interrupt me (or Chris, but usually me) mid-song, point to her crib, and say "Night-night."

So it was a rude awakening (literally) when she woke up an hour and a half after I had finally fallen asleep and responded to every attempt to put her back down with, "Downstairs? Mommy's bed?" and subsequent wailing when those requests were denied. She did eventually come to bed with me so she could sit up, kick me in the face, and talk to me about her binkies. Chris came home to find us hanging out in bed. Me, half asleep and Charlotte, inexplicably wired. He was able to get her down, but I was on my own the next three times. There was Orajel application, a diaper change, a Tylenol dosage, more repetition of the same Beatles song than should be humanly possible, and a lot of sitting in my rocking chair alternately dozing and thinking, "What the hell am I going to do now?"

On top of all this, she wouldn't nap today. I don't know why she is trying to destroy me, but she is succeeding. Today the combination of sleep-deprivation and the fact that she once again, requested I leave the area in which she and her daddy were playing, resulted in me huddled in a corner of the kitchen, quietly crying.

I'm a pro, I am.


  1. That sleep thing, it can be such a bitch. (I was in the exact same sleepless state on Sunday night, so I feel your pain).
    I'm sorry you're having it rough--hopefully you get some sleep tonight!

  2. Ah, poor Megan.... but you realize that when it's really important, she wants you, right?

  3. I SO feel you.
    I am so tired. I been back at work for two weeks now. The first day back my man and toddler had what y'all would call stomach flu and I would call DOOOOMMMMM, and the same night my baby decided sleeping through that night wasn't fun anymore. I haven't had more than 2 hours of sleep in a row since and the kids seem to tag team each other with sort of crying out in their sleep and sometimes waking up completely. The man is supposed to get up to them since hes the stay at home parent but he never wakes up and Evie just has to sniffle and I'm wide awake.

    Being on feet all day and no sleep? I'm freaking exhausted. Sleep is such a bitch.

  4. Oy with the sleeping. Is it the time change? That really messed things up for us, and so far the only way to sort of fix it is to keep E up really late (like, 9). But sometimes that doesn't work because he still gets up at 4:50 AM, plus he's whiny because he hasn't slept long enough.

    As for C throwing you out, yeah, kids can be jerks sometimes. Let's just go ahead and say it. KC is right though, the reason she "rejects" you is that she has absolutely no fear that you won't be there if she needs you. So it's kind of a good thing? When it's not making you cry, that is. :(

  5. I. Hate. Sleep. Regressions. OHGOD.

    I have good sleepers. I am so spoiled. When they don't sleep I get so cranky. Then I try to think of my friend whose son didn't sleep through the night till 18 months. Nope, still cranky.

    Good luck! Hope it's nothing and is gone by tomorrow.

  6. @Ginger- I actually did get some sleep Friday night! Last night was weird again. But at least it was my turn to sleep in today. Ahhhhhh. :)

    @Kate- Oh my god, you make me feel like an ass for even complaining. You must be a zombie!

    Mom and Perpetua- You guys are right. She does want me in the middle of the night when she's scared or sick. And that is what really matters. And we're making progress on the playing thing.

    Clara- charlotte is 19 months and JUST started sleeping through the night (sometimes.) Though, last night was awful again so that might be over. Let's trade children? I guess you don't get much out of that deal, so I'll throw in some wine.

  7. Dude... dont feel bad. I dont know how you do it! I would of shot myself if ZJ hadn't started sleeping through at like 10 weeks. And Evie too.

    I'm such a sleep whore, I get so cranky too if they keep me up. Such a bad momma!

    But yes. Kinda resemble a Zombie.

    Need to write a post about how i have about 2 weeks worth o mascara caked around my eyes.