Every couple of years I go through a sort of...awakening. I get all excited about a bunch of different things. I start projects, start reading books, start taking lessons, start writing, start working out. I'm sure by now you've deciphered the pattern. You're quite shrewd, aren't you?
I start on these goals and projects, but I don't actually finish any of them. I suppose part of my problem could be that I rarely get excited about one endeavor at a time. I go from watching reruns of "Friends" and screwing around on Facebook every night to writing a novel, becoming a wine expert, learning to play the guitar, reading every book I never read, taking up hiking, beginning a gym routine, and coming up with a cure for cancer, all at once. And then, predictably, I'm hanging out with Ross and Rachel again, not having accomplished any of the things that were so important to me last week.
Well, except for the cancer thing. I totally did that.
As you might have guessed (you clever thing), it's happening again. It started with an interest in food and sort of snowballed. If you read this post you can see where it all began. Since then I've (mostly) stopped eating meat, joined a CSA (We DO have them here! I'll blog about it in a day or so), decided to grow my own organic herb garden, make my own compost (which is looking unlikely for apartment living unless I can afford a hideously expensive device or want to live with an offensive odor pervading the air), and the list goes on.
For the first time, I think I finally have a passion that's going to stick. I'm having fun getting my random box of produce and figuring out what to do with it, hitting up the farmer's markets, trying to figure out what to do with all the peaches we got this week (Jam? Pie?), and getting creative in the kitchen. I still believe I will slip up on occasion, but I know that my dedication to feeding my family well will not disappear like the unwritten novels of the past.
I wish I could be as confident that my other present projects will receive the same kind of devotion and follow-through, but I know how these things usually go. Just for fun (and so you can laugh at me when I'm tweeting about television from the couch in a month) here are some of the things I'm working on, in no particular order:
1. My herb garden- I know I mentioned this, but since I haven't done it yet, it belongs on the to-do list. I'm probably giving up on the compost idea, but I'm working on getting the pots, seeds, soil, etc. that I need for this project. It's a small investment, which is pretty much the only hold-up at this point.
2. I'm writing a screenplay with a friend- We've only met once to work on it, and we don't technically have an idea yet, so this is high on the "Doesn't Look Promising" list, but I hope it works out because I think I would like to do more creative writing, and I think he and I might work well together.
3. Learning to play my guitar- The guitar was an amazingly generous gift from my father-in-law, and also one that meant a lot to me. I took lessons for a while, and then infertility took over my life and bank account, and I stopped. I'm not expecting anything ground-breaking here since I'll be teaching myself, but I'm hoping to at least re-master some chords and perhaps string them together in a recognizable way? Hopefully?
4. Obtain and regularly ride a bike- Don't hold your breath. I can't afford a bike. But, it's my new dream. In the meantime, I will have to be satisfied with any exercise I manage to do. Which brings me to...
5. Exercise!- I know, how very typical. I've been trying to get to the gym for weeks now, and it hasn't happened. I'm hoping when the weather cools down, I'll be able to get out for walks, which will turn into jogs, and maybe even runs, someday.
6. AIDS walk- I'm signed up. I just need sponsors.
I guess that's it. I'd like to say that this time I'll stick with it and accomplish these goals, but only time will tell. Especially since this is all on top of being a parent, a wife, and an aspiring writer. Oh, and there's that Master's degree I still need to finish...
I think I'm going to go lie down for a minute. Now where are those "Friends" DVD's?
Dusting off the cobwebs
7 years ago
I tend to do the same thing, find something that sparks an interest, do it for a few weeks, then watch it die a slow death. I'm very up and down, kinda manic even, when it comes to motivation to try new things. It's a circumstance where my all or nothing mentality does me no favours.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I am jealous of your herb garden. Good luck on all of the above!
Ummm...I have a bike you can use. Just say the word. (And drive to your grandmother's and get it out of the shed.) I know, I'm not really helping, am I?
ReplyDeleteI'm in awe of your commitment to the food issue. I feel utterly overwhelmed by that one, so I'm jealous of your commitment!
ReplyDeleteUm....we've met twice and its gonna be AWESOME. I think we actually made a lot of good progress during the 2nd meeting.
ReplyDelete@Cheryl- Don't be jealous just yet! I actually scored some pots that someone was throwing away, but I'm still confused about some of the stuff I need, and I haven't been able to find organic seeds. Hopefully it'll come together soon!
ReplyDelete@Mom- I can use your bike? You are TOTALLY helping!
@Ginger- The food thing is pretty recent for me. I've tried so many times to eat healthy, and nothing ever worked. Finding this new perspective and defining my priorities about food (like focusing on real food instead of diet food and getting into organics) has made all the difference. It's sort of become an obsession, really.
But, I am a huge believer that you can eat well ad feed your family well without getting as insane about it as I am. I'm sure you're doing great!
@Yury- Yeah, we did. I'm totally excited now!
Ugh, I am the exact same way. Lots of ideas, sometimes short on the follow-through. I thought it would get better as I got older. Nope. :)
ReplyDeleteWay to go on the CSA, though. That is a hugely great thing to do for self, family, community.
So I have two tips or advice on two of your goals: (1) Guitar playing for dummies. When I am on my guitar playing kick (yes I cycle through dreams too) it has been a super godsend in self-teaching. It even comes with a CD that teaches you to tune by sound. Also now that I know that you have a guitar, I have something that you are going to LOVE!!! It is a gift that was given to me by someone who got it as a gift when they first started to learn to play. :)
ReplyDelete(2) Swap meet for a bike. I found a FANTASTIC bike in great condition (just needs new inner tubes) for $10!!!! I'm telling you, you're bike dreams can happen. Then later down the road you can spring for the really expensive bike. :D