Thursday, September 3, 2009

An Introduction

Here I am. Yet another blogger in the vast web expanses of mommies, political debaters, budding artists, and anyone else out there who needs to get his or her thoughts and experiences out of their heads, and onto the screen. Why should anyone care about me? I don’t know that they will. But, I just had a baby about four months ago, at which point my need to share my experiences with anyone who is willing to listen grew exponentially. I have never had such an intense desire to tell stories, share my insecurities, and maybe even get a little reassurance or validation or…something, as when I started being a mother to my daughter.

Before you induce vomiting, let me assure you that I will not be merely gushing about the wonder of her first laugh, or how my filled-to-the-brim-with-love heart burst when she grabbed my finger. Nor will my blog read as a clich├ęd sitcom script wherein, I, the protagonist stumble around with messy hair, in sweats, and with spit-up on my shirt, grasping for a new diaper after the baby noisily filled the last one with perfect comic timing.

Okay, so there will be SOME of that.

But, mostly, I would like to be straight with you, whoever “you” are. Maybe you are just my mom, maybe someday you will be a few strangers, maybe it doesn’t matter. I’d like to tell you how getting started breastfeeding almost made me lose my mind. Or how sometimes I am impatient to put the baby to bed so I can have my husband mix me a cocktail. I’d like to tell you about how we rushed into invasive expensive fertility treatments, only to get pregnant having drunken sex in our car which we had pulled off to the side of the road. And maybe about how I take my baby’s temperature for no reason and panic about the fan in her room catching fire.

I won’t be pretending to be perfect, nor will I pretend to be the stereotypical “bad mother”. I’m just someone who is doing her best to be a good mom, and I will make mistakes along the way, which I think is all part of the fun. Hopefully, someday this blog will reach people who will read about my experiences, and in turn, share theirs with me.